So bad about posting

So now it's spring and my last post is about the new year.  Looking back it has been way too busy with too many people needing me!  That however is one of the things that led me crossdressing in the first place.  While many things don't change, I have and even though time for LeeLee has been scarce, she's still my best side and that keeps me on an even keel (pardon the mixing of metaphors).

Here's a new pic with a spring feeling top and some new jewelry.

New Year - New Me

Here we are a week into the new year and for me about six months have passed since I decided to embark on this cross dressing experience.  It has been a great time and although I have very limited opportunities to dress up, I know that this has been a good and proper choice for me.

So, sitting here in a rare opportunity to run around in my black baby doll, I look back and forward at how LeeLee has progressed.  I'll not indulge in resolutions since most that I have made in the past require me to do something I really don't want to do and as such are readily broken with no remorse.

I have begun to realize my femme identity and know much better how to shop for clothing, accessories and cosmetics.

I have actually gone out in public in the daytime and survived without heart failure! :)

I want to do that some more and would love to go to a social event as LeeLee.

I've made a few friends who are accepting and encouraging and I am eternally grateful for their support.

One friend whom I've not met in person yet is high on my list to get to know in real time.  That is something that I shall do as soon as possible.

My first wig turned out to be a really bad style for me but my second has been wonderful!  I have a better sense now of what works for a girl my age and size.

I'll leave this for now since it is late and sleep is calling me.  A wonderful New Year to all!

May your dreams become your reality!!

Christmas Presents

So many chances to tell everyone what's on my Christmas list.  I decided this year that no one that I knew would buy LeeLee what she wanted and since I know her mind, I shopped for her.  Whenever I shopped for a lady gift, I got one for LeeLee too.  If a store or web site had a great Christmas bargain for clothes, makeup or accessories, LeeLee got some.

So without spoiling her Christmas I can say that LeeLee got some great new tops in spicy colors, a pair of pants in basic black, some leggings to go with an skirt and sweater she already has, some new hose, a clutch in faux gator and some great Estee Lauder gift sets in lipstick, eyeshadow and gloss.

When she dresses up, we'll have some new pix to post.

More random thinkings

It has been awhile since I've been "home alone" and had a chance to loose LeeLee for more than a moment or two so here's some thoughts the girl's been having.

I've read in several places the benefits of breast massage for increasing and toning the breast.  Being a big girl I've always had some breasts and I have spent several weeks massaging them to see what might happen.  It actually does seem to be having some effect.  When I dressed up today I am filling my bra better even without the breast forms.  When I "push up" there is more fullness.  What I've often tried to hide with poor posture, I am now enjoying and standing tall to admire.

I enjoy making jewelry.  I also enjoy wearing it when I have the chance.  I have made myself several necklaces that I can wear in guy mode and I've also made some just for LeeLee.  I ponder sometimes if my inclination to crossdress and display my feminine self is why I enjoy the creating of jewelry, cooking, buying shoes, etc. or if my enjoyment of these so called feminine pursuits has led me to the desire to crossdress.  It's a variation on the chicken and the egg debate which I won't pursue but will ponder on occasion.

So much for random thinkings.  Here's a picture of one of my recent designs.  I think it looks great on me.

Happy Halloween!!!

Make it last all weekend!

Kisses All!!!

Decided to do some self-portraits today and to show off some of the turquoise jewelry I made.

For the Very First Time

When I first began this journey I blogged that I had no desire to pass in public and that a safe haven to explore was my only desire.  That is largely true even today but recently I have had a compelling desire to take LeeLee into public but inconspicuously.  This plan began to take shape as I planned for a visit to my mentor and encourager Mistress S.  I was going to be home alone for about an hour before I needed to leave and I felt that I could actually do this.

This morning was LeeLee's debut.  Butterflies don't begin to describe what was going on inside as I began dressing.  The makeup went on pretty well - nothing fancy today and definitely no mascara to glob on me.  If you've heard people say their heart was pounding, that is where I was at by the time I got to the lipstick.  Maybe the tympani solo in the 1812 Overture would be more fitting!  Trembling hands were in there too.  Twice I was sure I could clean me up and put on my guy clothes and still get there in time.  But I persisted - wig, black knee highs, jeans, slip-on wedges and an off-white tunic.  LeeLee was in the house, dressed and looking pretty good but she had to get her butt out of the house now.

Opening the front door (no one in sight) and trying to walk casually to the driveway seemed easy enough since my heart was still beating in cut time to pace me.  OK, that's good so far, but drive out of the neighborhood the back way where no one would recognize the car if they happened to be out.  So far, so good I think, I'm on the highway now.  But wait, the cars and trucks are going to pass me!!  EEK!!! I thinks.  Judiciously varying my speed as they pass by and learning that hair twirling can be useful in remaining undercover I make it into town.

CRAP!!  Stoplights and construction traffic merges and people walking by only a few feet away.  Twirl the hair some more - careful don't pull the wig off.  WHEW!! There's a parking place right near the door to Mistress's building.  WHOOPS, she's not quite ready and it's raining and there are 3 contractor guys loading pallets into Volvos.  Twirl hair, pull down the visor, put on some more lipgloss, twirl hair.  Finally they pull away.  Mistress appears at the door (in very cool pink knee socks which I'd love to have)  and I casually power walk across the street to safety!

All in all an incredible montage of exhilaration, terror and satisfaction.  What a rush!!!  Still I'm not not looking to pass, just sneak by! :)